Friday, March 30, 2007

Damn You

I guess for you, it takes only one mistake to negate all the other accomplishments I’ve made.

It is only your position that’s preventing me from pointing out to your face that between the two of us, you’re the one who’s not doing the job properly.

The thing is, I used to have so much respect for you, which is why I stick it out, because at least I enjoyed what I’m doing and I thought I was good at it. But right now, my sense of accomplishment is being taken away from me along with that respect. And I hate the feeling when I don’t have enthusiasm and belief in what I do.

Just a little bit more, then I’m out of here.

(I realize that part of my anger comes from my own disappointment over my own mistake. I tried not to use this as an excuse, but right now I’m appropriating it for myself – I’m only human. I make my own mistakes. I take out my anger on other people and you’re fair game, because really, you’re also to blame. And I take pleasure in doing so. I’m only human.)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

ohlalala my baby is angry eh! take it easy. this is a bad week for us.