Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Take Me Back Tuesday - June 27

(note: this is my first of Take Me Back Tuesday meme. I’ll probably be doing this on a regular basis, together with Top Five On Friday and Random 10. You can get these music memes here.)

What songs make you think of rain or a rainy day?

  • This is kind of embarrassing, but the first song that comes to my mind is Wiseguys’ The First Time I Saw You (yak! jologs!). The song not only made me think about rainy days, but it also reminded me my high school days and my first ever romantic prose entitled “In My Dreams” (another yak! super duper cheestatic prose!), since this prose was inspired by that song.

    “The first time I saw you, you were standing in the rain. There was something about you that made me look again. The way that you let the rain fall down on you, the way that you smile, when your eyes met mine…”

(okay, now you're allowed to gag!)

  • Eraserheads’ cover of Tuwing Umuulan At Kapiling Ka. Their version had that sad quality to it without being totally depressing.

What songs make you think of storms?

  • Lightning Crashes by Live – although the song isn’t about storms or rains, the title of the song evokes images of noisy, stormy nights.

Did you ever listen to music to soothe yourself during a particularly nasty storm? (What music was it, if you can remember)

  • If we’re talking about storms in the figurative sense (meaning, storms in my life), then yes, I did listen to a lot of music to weather my storms – and trust me, listening to music is a big, big help when you’re feeling depressed or angry or sentimental.

What kind of music do you like to listen to on a rainy day?

  • No particular “rainy days” playlist for me (although this is such a nice idea for a playlist!), but on rainy days I'm usually curled up in my bed while reading books, so I prefer to listen to songs that won’t interfere with my concentration. (songs that won’t put me in the “daydream/emote” mode!)

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Ang Kumalabet, Panget!

I am not myself this week.

You want proof? Well, as I am writing this, every employee in our company may not be getting their salaries tomorrow because of my miscalculations. Aaargh! Short of selling my soul to the devil, I am doing all I can now to negotiate with BPI to please, please, pretty please have the transaction regularized. Or else... hmm, it could be a blessing in disguise. Maybe the company will finally realize my importance to the organization. Oh wait, wala din pala akong sweldo pag nagkataon. Syet, hindi pwede 'to!!!

My left upper back has been hurting since yesterday. I don't know why. I think I pulled a muscle there. Or because I might be having pneumonia. Or someone's making "kulam" of me. Paranoid Dyela strikes again. I was about to go to the hospital yesterday to have my back examined (and probably my head as well?) when the ever sensible Mommy Karen intervened and told me to try painkillers first. I never liked the smell of painkillers but drastic times call for drastic measures so I put some Alaxan Gel on my back. It alleviated the pain a bit but I still had a hard time concentrating on my job. I took a half day leave today only to be greeted with the unfortunate payroll situation when I got to work this afternoon. God, I think stress is going to kill me.

And speaking of getting killed, I almost came close to killing a stranger yesterday. On my way to meet Ketz in Ayala, some guy poked me at the back - my left back. I almost screamed at him! (I probably said something loudly but I'm not sure because I was wearing earphones that time. The guy seemed surprised at my reaction...) I almost punched him in the face! Which is another blessing in disguise because he was just showing some concern. (Aww...) The guy poked me just to say that something's dangling on my back. Well, that something is actually the ribbon/belt of the blouse I am wearing which the clueless guy didn't see because I was wearing a blazer. Of all the times someone was actually being nice to me was the time when I was extra cranky! (His actual words were: "Miss, may nakalawit sa likod mo." And I thought - My God, I have a tail!!!) I really couldn't blame him. When I'm not feeling well, I really don't pay attention to how I look and a ribbon poking out of my blazer must be an unpleasant sight - in the eye of a guy who probably had never worn a blouse with a ribbon tied around the waist.

All in all, not a good week for me. The Mavs lost, I got the news that Fete dela Musique will not push through this year, my colleagues will probably kill me tomorrow, I think I'm going down with a flu and my back is killing me.

(buzzer-beater shot! I get to live another day. the powers of my negotiating skills can not be denied. nyahahaha...)

yes it's true!

Red Hot Heat!

Damn. My Mavs lost the NBA Finals to the Heat. And the bad thing is that I can't even muster enough ill feelings about it because the Miami Heat deserve the championship. If only they were beaten by a team I truly hate, then I could rant and rant the whole week about it! But the only comment I could come up with is - Wade is the man! But I'm still a Nowitzki fan and I have high hopes for his team. Go Mavs!

So congrats to the Mighty Miami Heat! And good luck to the Dallas Mavericks! Until next season...

a very geeky survey

for geeks like me who’s addicted (what else is new?) to wikipedia. (it maybe an on-line encyclopedia, but an encyclopedia nonetheless! our World Book encyclopedia set has now been officially relegated to dormant status.)

Go to wikipedia and look up your birthday (excluding the year). List three neat facts, two births and one death in your journal, including the year.


1968 - Soviet Union-dominated Warsaw Pact troops invade Czechoslovakia, crushing the Prague Spring; on the same day, Nicolae Ceauşescu, leader of Communist Romania, publicly condemns the Soviet maneuver, encouraging the Romanian population to arm itself against possible Soviet reprisals.

1987 - Hard rock band Guns N' Roses release their classic debut Appetite for Destruction.

1993 - NASA loses contact with the Mars Observer spacecraft.


1535 - Shimazu Yoshihiro, Japanese samurai and warlord (d. 1619)

1936 - Wilt Chamberlain, American basketball player (d. 1999)


1614 - Elizabeth Báthory, the world's most prolific female serial killer (b. 1560) (she’s not just any female serial killer, she’s not just prolific, she’s the world’s most prolific female serial killer! ha! san ka pa?)


- I intentionally did not choose Ninoy Aquino’s death on my death list. well, I assume you already know this fact, not because you know Philippine history inside out but because my birthday is on the list of special holidays. (or hindi niyo na kino-consider what the holiday is for?! basta walang pasok!!!)

- I know that RX 93.1 began airing in August 1983. Whether it started airing on August 21, I’m not sure, I just assume it did!

- Surprisingly, no event, birth or death took place on August 21, 1981 – the year of my birth. Who knows, maybe someday that date will be added bearing my info – Jela, a Filipina novelist best known for her coming-of-age opus entitled (blank). hahaha! wishful thinking!

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

malabo ang survey na 'to... part deux

it's jen's turn to answer this survey! :)


  1. Ang puti ng legs.. hehe.. hahaha! uhm, thanks? =)
  2. Watch a Regine Velasquez concert, at the Araneta Coliseum, front row! well, as long as somebody pays for my tickets hehehe!
  3. Purple – looks good on you.. purple it is! =p
  4. Sensible. Always gives me a different perspective about things (kasi nga lagi tayong salungat di ba? =))
  5. Malakas makipag-usap sa phone. Kasi nagulat ako nun, may kausap ka tapos bigla kang tumawa (tahimik pa kasi sa office nun, sobra.. =)) hahaha! probably not as loud as...?
  6. White cat – kasi sobrang puti! nakakatawa naman, 2 na kayo ni Bom na nagsasabi nito!
  7. Aren’t you afraid to love again, after everything that happened? no, I'm not afraid of falling in love again. I'm actually looking forward to it! What I'm afraid of is that after everything that had happened, I'll find out that still haven't learned my lessons and I end up making the same mistakes that I did before.
  8. please post this on your blog with your comments on my answers and your answer on the next question.
  9. C - i know what you're trying to do!!! sige, isport naman ako hehehe....
  • Caramel frap - obviously, sobrang adik ako dito!
  • Chewing gum - major stress reliever!
  • Christmas - i love the Christmas season kahit na it's so commercialized here in our country.
  • Conversations - i enjoy good conversations (over a cup of caramel frap!). i can stay up all night talking to friends about nothing and everything.
  • Cellphone - i value the contents of my fone more than the unit itself that's why i'm hesitant to replace it with the latest model (duh! wala lang talagang pera! hahaha!)
  • Allan Caidic - my first PBA idol. The Triggerman rules!
  • Cheshire Cat - one of my fave characters in the Thursday Next novels. Also known as the Unitary Authority of the Warrington Cat, i like him because of his habit of uttering non-sequiturs.
  • The Cutting Edge - one of my fave romantic comedy films. toe pick!
  • Chocolates and chichirias - yum!
  • Criselda (aka Ketz) - friends for life!

Monday, June 19, 2006

shuffle it, baby!

Another shuffle survey with a twist. Sort of proves that I also listen to mushy love song (one mushy love song made it in the shuffle!). I wanted to quote the more obscure parts of the song but decided to just put my fave lines, so some you’ll guess with ease. =)

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever on random.
Step 2: Post a line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess the song where the lines were taken from and the artist who sang it. - please post your answers on the comments section =)

  1. Our brains are on fire, with the feeling to kill, and it will not go away, until our dreams are fulfilled...
  2. All the nights I sit and wonder, must be more to laugh, I’m sure that days and years gone by while I am living with the, living with the lonely feeling...
  3. And be the one who catches all your tears, that’s why I need you to hear...
  4. You know I’ve seen a lot of what the world can do, and it’s breaking my heart in two...
  5. The hours passed so slowly since they’ve thrown away the key...
  6. And after all that’s been said and done, you’re just the part of me I can’t let go...
  7. I thought I lost you somewhere but you were never really ever there at all...
  8. Ngunit pagsapit ng gabi, heto ka sa ‘king tabi, sa pag-ibig mo di ako nagsisisi...
  9. Sasamahan ka sa tamis, sasamahan ka sa pait, sasamahan ka sa dilim, sasamahan ka hanggang langit...
  10. In walked ol’ misery and she’s been here since then...
  11. I’m on my knees, pretty pretty please kill me, I want to die, put a bullet in head...
  12. Staring at the ceiling, making friends with shadows on my wall...
  13. You stick around and I’ll make it worth your while...
  14. She holds the hand that holds her down, she will rise above...
  15. Pilit ko mang ika’y limutin, lagi kong natatagpuan, ang iyong tinig at awitin tuwing sasapit ang ulan...
  16. I was in love with you when we were younger, you were mine...
  17. I’d live for your smile and die for your kiss...
  18. When he holds you close, when pulls you near, when he says those words you’ve been needing to hear, I wish I was him coz those words are mine to say to you till the end of time...
  19. I’ll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it...
  20. I’m evil, my middle name is misery, I say I’m evil, so don’t you mess around with me...
  21. A million lies to sell yourself, is all you ever had...
  22. Ako’y may kaibigan at siya’y nahihirapan, handa na ba kayo upang siya'y tulungan...
  23. You’re the only thing I got? Well, then I must not have a lot...
  24. Don’t try to find me, please don’t you dare. Just live in my memory, you’ll always be there...
  25. So tell me now, why did you have to be, why did you have to be so cold?
  26. And I have to stand by and take it baby, all for loving you...
  27. All these riddles that you burn, all come running back to you, all these rhythms that you hide, only love can save us now...
  28. Making love to you was never second best...
  29. I hear this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go...
  30. I took for granted you were with me, I breathe by your looks and you look right through me, we were broken and didn’t know it ...

Sunday, June 18, 2006

what the fete?!

wala daw fete de la musique this year. syet.

antagal ko pa man ding inabangan 'to!!!

kung kelan naman meron na 'kong chuck taylor. rakistang rakista na ang porma ko ngayon. hahaha.

sino ba naman kasi ang mag-aakala na mahilig ako sa banda?! noong Biyernes nga nasa Red Box ako kasama ang mga officemates ni Ketz, gulat na gulat sila kasi puro rock ang kinakanta ko. (ikaw ba naman ang bumanat ng Black ng Pearl Jam?) (pero isipin mo, sino ba namang hardcore rocker ang nagvi-videoke?! kunsabagay, hindi ko naman sinasabi na hardcore ako, basta mahilig lang akong makinig ng rock songs). may nagtanong pa - babae ba talaga ko? hay naku girl, babaeng babae po!!!

teka, mabalik tayo sa fete na 'yan. kakainis talaga. sobrang enjoy ako dito nung nakaraang taon. kahit na madaming uruk-hais. at sigurado ako, madami ding banda ang hindi natuwa sa balita na 'to. isang magandang oportunidad para sa mga bagong banda ang tumugtog sa fete. at ang event tulad ng fete de la musique 'di hamak naman na mas may kredibilidad kesa kung ano anong awards ek-ek ang nagsulputan ngayon. (*ubo*myx music awards*ubo*)

sana next year may fete uli.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

malabo ang survey na 'to...


Leave your name and:
  1. I'll respond with something random about you.
  2. I'll challenge you to try something.
  3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
  4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
  5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
  6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
  7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
  8. If I do this for you, you must in turn post this meme on your blog.
  9. With a letter I assign to you, you must write ten things you like that begin with that letter :)

This is what Bom sent me. =) I include na my comments and my answer to the last question. Try niyo din, medyo magulo hehehe...


  1. Maraming bags! – nye! slight lang naman… hehehe…
  2. Go to an all-mushy-love-songs-concert. I can do this! Well, I consider Siakol’s “Lakas Tama” a mushy love song! hahaha! Parang di ko kasi kayo ma-picture eh! Or be without a radio/mp3 player/Discman for the whole weekend. No iPod for the whole weekend? Or no MUSIC for the whole weekend? Hmm… must be a lonely day not to listen to any form of music! but I’ll try this one of these days.
  3. Yellow – cheerful! – I thought I have a miserable life?! =p no longer as moody as before. =)
  4. Hindi halata sa una but you’re a friend whom you can always trust to be there, in good times or bad.
  5. Sa Kenny Rogers sa Megamall (my first lunch with you guys), parang feeling ko di niyo ako gusto kausapin =D Si Sir Jun lang kasi kinakausap niyo nun (most of the time) – Oh no! I’m sorry! It was never my intention to exclude you sa conversation, siguro nagpapakiramdam pa lang tayo nun.
  6. Cat? Hahaha. Naisip ko lang ngayon kasi ang puti niyo. – hahaha! I also like cats but I really wish I had a dog.
  7. I think I asked it already nung nasa Fuzion tayo.. Pero as replacement questions – given the opportunity, would you want to never have met Randy? honestly, no. he did bring something good in my life, even if our ending sucks. I’m not trying to romanticize what we had before, but some of the best moments of my life, I had those with him. I wish he had been more honest with me when things start to go wrong, I wish that even if he did not trust my reaction as his (then)GF, he could have trusted me as his friend. yuuuck! ang drama! well, the point is, I have no regrets. How would you assess yourself at present (i.e. are you satisfied with the person you’ve become, blah blah blah)? Is this question related to the first question? =) In that context, at hindi naman sa pagbubuhat ng bangko, I realized I’m a lot stronger than I thought I was. And knowing that, I think I’m more open now to try new things, especially those that I was too afraid to try before. I am generally satisfied with my life, although there are still other things I want to accomplish and experience. Siguro, it is only now that I truly understand the journey-and-destination thingie, so I know that whatever happens, whether I get the things I wanted or not, I’ll be glad for the experience.

    okay, enough with the philosophical crap!!!
  8. –same thing you answered below- ikaw? ano pang inaantay mo? tama na basa! post na din! =p
  9. S
  • Stonefree/Sponge Cola – my fave local bands!
  • Starbucks – addicted to frap and good conversations!
  • Somebody to Love, Elliott’s version – this is truly wow!
  • Staring at the wall – literal na tulala! hahaha!
  • Sarcasm – yeah, right.
  • Sherman’s Lagoon – funny comic strips!
  • Shopping! – or just malling, kahit walang pera basta makagala!
  • Surveys – obviously!
  • Stick-ons or Post-Its – hahaha! pinilit! I’m such a sucker for post-its and notepads!
  • Saturdays and Sundays – the only thing I look forward to during the week nyahaha!!!

Not Another Shuffle Survey?!

because i'm an addict who got nothing better to do...

heck, you know what to do. and i tag everyone who reads this blog! =)

  • Why did you decide to take this quiz?
    Track: I Want You To Want Me
    Artist: Cheap Trick
    Comments: I just realized that surveys like this makes me needy! hahaha!

  • Where will you meet your husband/wife?
    Track: Someday We’ll Know
    Artist: New Radicals
    Comments: aw… is true love just once in a lifetime?

  • Where will you *cough*hug*cough* your wife/husband for the first time?
    Track: Dyslexic Heart
    Artist: Paul Westerberg
    Comments: I’m trying to comprehend you but I got a dyslexic heart…

  • What is your secret dream?
    Track: Love Of A Lifetime
    Artist: Firehouse
    Comments: still searching for my love of a lifetime...

  • What song will they be playing at the morgue when they'll perform your autopsy?
    Track: I Believe To My Soul
    Artist: Elliott Yamin
    Comments: one of these days and it won’t be long, you’re gonna look for me and I’ll be gone!

  • Who will throw a party after you die?
    Track: Two Princes
    Artist: Spin Doctors
    Comments: wow! that must be some party!

  • What song describes you when you're so drunk that you can't speak?
    Track: Wild World
    Artist: Mr. Big
    Comments: hope you had a lot of nice things to wear…

  • What will actually kill you?
    Track: I Drive Myself Crazy
    Artist: N Sync
    Comments: I drive myself crazy to the point of death!

  • Who will be your slave?
    Track: Knocking on Heaven’s Door
    Artist: Guns n Roses
    Comments: heaven won’t give me one so I’m knocking on its doors!

  • What will you look like at the age of 80?
    Track: Hot In Herre
    Artist: Nelly
    Comments: still hot at the ripe age of 80!!!

  • Where will you meet your arch enemy of life?
    Track: Creep
    Artist: Radiohead
    Comments: you’re so fucking special…

  • Where did your parents 'create' you?
    Track: Vasoline
    Artist: Stone Temple Pilots
    Comments: Blew a kiss, and tried to take it home…

  • What will happen to you tonight, after going to bed?
    Track: Found Out About You
    Artist: Gins Blossoms
    Comments: Did you love only in my head?

  • What is the meaning of your life?
    Track: Lovefool
    Artist: Cardigans
    Comments: fool for love?

  • What will be the meaning of your death?
    Track: 10 Days Late
    Artist: Third Eye Blind
    Comments: I should have died earlier?! Death has such a lousy timing!

  • How many necrophiles will ravage your corpse?
    Track: Song 2
    Artist: Blur
    Comments: just 2?! woo-hoo! when I feel I don’t belong!

  • What do you hate the most?
    Track: Always
    Artist: Bon Jovi
    Comments: I wish I was him coz those words are mine, to say to you till the end of time…

  • What do you love the best?
    Track: Narda
    Artist: Kamikazee
    Comments: pag-ibig na palaisipan, sa kanta na lang idadaan…

  • What makes you feel like jumping out the window?
    Track: Candleburn
    Artist: Dishwalla
    Comments: tonight she’ll give herself away, she’ll break apart all by her, by herself, so easy how we come undone…

  • What do you think about bananas?
    Track: Ordertaker
    Artist: Parokya ni Edgar
    Comments: hahaha! meron ba kayong saging? wala rin po! wala?! hoy! wala na bang ma-order?!!!

  • Where would you like to be now?
    Track: I
    Artist: 6 Cycle Mind
    Comments: iniintindi ko ang lungkot na ginawa mo… waah!

  • Who would you like to have a tea-party with?
    Track: Wonderful Tonight
    Artist: Eric Clapton
    Comments: oh my darling, you look wonderful tonight…

  • How would you describe your childhood?
    Track: Come As You Are
    Artist: Nirvana
    Comments: I wish I was like you, easily amused…

  • If you could do anything you want, what would it be?
    Track: Till I Hear It From You
    Artist: Gin Blossoms
    Comments: I can’t let it get me off, or break up my train of thought…

  • Recent obsessions/existential problems?
    Track: Silvertoes
    Artist: Parokya ni Edgar
    Comments: Nyahahaha!!! Miss, miss pakitigil lang please, ang iyong pagpapantasya!!!

  • If they would make a movie about you, what would be the title?
    Track: About A Girl
    Artist: Nirvana
    Comments: But I can’t see every night free…

  • Where did the pigeons go?
    Track: Cats In the Cradle
    Artist: Ugly Kid Joe
    Comments: Uhm, the cats in the cradle ate them?

  • Are you a good stalker/rapist?
    Track: Pretty Fly (For A White Guy)
    Artist: Offspring
    Comments: You know he really doesn’t get it anyway!

  • What will your neighbour think of you when they'll find out that you have naked pictures of them?
    Track: The Distance Between Us
    Artist: Fra Lippo Lippi
    Comments: They’ll put enormous distance between us!

  • Who's for dinner tonight?
    Track: Daliri
    Artist: Kjwan
    Comments: cannibalism ba to?! bastusan na!

  • Who are you hiding in your cupboard tonight?
    Track: Neon
    Artist: Sponge Cola
    Comments: coz I, I know I can never be enough…

  • Who is your fashion ideal?
    Track: Unwell
    Artist: Matchbox 20
    Comments: but stay awhile and maybe then you’ll see, a different side of me...

  • This Halloween, you'll dress up as a ...
    Track: Ironic
    Artist: Alanis Morissette
    Comments: the queen of the non-ironic irony!

  • Who would you like to keep in your pockets all the time?
    Track: Everything You Want
    Artist: Vertical Horizon
    Comments: I am everything you want, I am everything you want, I am everything inside of you that you wish you could be…

  • If you'd won the lottery, who would you buy first?
    Track: My Star
    Artist: Stonefree
    Comments: aw… he is this obsession in my life...

  • Are we there yet?
    Track: All I Want
    Artist: Toad the Wet Sprocket
    Comments: and it won’t matter now, whatever happens will be, for the air speaks of all we’ll never be, it won’t trouble me…

  • Em... any hard feelings for choosing our survey?
    Track: When I Come Around
    Artist: Green Day
    Comments: I’m a loser, and a user, so I don’t need no accuser!

  • What are your thoughts about the people who made this quiz?
    Track: The Unforgiven II
    Artist: Metallica
    Comments: If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you!

Monday, June 12, 2006

Go Mavs! But What About Elliott?!

I’m supposed to wake up early to catch the NBA Finals between Miami Heat and Dallas Mavericks. Damn! I’ve been waiting for the Mavs to make it to the Finals ever since I become a Dirk Nowitzki fan (okay, so I’m not as loyal to my NBA teams as I am to my PBA team, the Ginebra Gin Kings. Mostly, it depends who my favorite player is at the moment. Oh, and also to my “anybody but LA Lakers or Utah Jazz” mentality. hehehe…). It felt awful to miss the first game that’s why I was looking forward to the long holidays and catch up on my TV viewing (heck, I even thought it would air last Sunday!).

But since I was such a lazy, lazy gal, I couldn’t bring myself to wake up an hour early to see the game in its entirety. I got to catch the last few minutes of the third quarter and man, the Mavs totally pwned the Heat! The Mavs won convincingly, Shaq looked like a lost puppy with only 5 points to show, Dirk was interviewed (just want to add the fact that he never have to score more than 30 points to win both games; everybody on the team contributed! yey!), and everything was all right again in this world.

Then I just found out I missed Elliott Yamin singing the national anthem.

*cue ear-splitting scream*

Can you just imagine the unfairness of it all?!

This one time I broke away from my obsession with reading everything Elliott on the Net (to concentrate on my other obsessions) was the one time that it was mentioned he’ll be singing the national anthem? At the Mavs game? Wearing a Mavs jersey? Of Nowitzki? And I did not see it?

This one time when I felt guilt-free from oversleeping was the one time when Elliott’s finally show up on my TV again? At the Mavs game? Wearing a Mavs jersey? Of Nowitzki? And I did not see it?

How could this happen to me?!

I got no one to blame but myself. Curse me for devoting my time rearranging songs on my iPod instead of surfing the net hunting for Elliott news. Curse me for choosing this weekend to clean my room instead of checking out what my pretend BF is up to. Curse me for oversleeping when I should have been watching the NBA Finals from start to finish!

For what it’s worth, I had this nagging suspicion that Elliott might sing the national anthem at an NBA game – but not at this NBA Finals game! Just think – he’s neither from Dallas nor from Miami, he’s a big supporter of LA Lakers (so how did I know that?) which – haha! (sorry, Elliott, I couldn’t resist!) – did not make it to the Finals, and he didn’t even win the American Idol! Just what are the chances that he’ll be singing at the NBA Finals?! Well, we know how that one turned out, don’t we? I should have listened to my instincts.

Excuse me while I hunt the Net for any pic, video or MP3 of Elliott at the NBA Finals. (wait! ta da! here it is!)