Dead Tired

My tatay lost in the barangay elections. I'm not really that sad about the outcome, because we still managed to place 9th in the final tally. Considering that he was a neophyte and running independently and that 3 out of the 7 who made it are reelectionists, I feel that we have done well.

But I'm just sooo tired and I just want to lie down and sleep and do nothing for the next 10 days...


But first, I need to check a few websites before I retire for bed... At para namang nananadya ang PostSecret at kelangang pag-isipin pa ko!


I hope, I hope I never have to do this!



But my problem can be summed up as:



Oh well...



And I really like this text message and I hope others can relate to this as well:


"Do not live according to the expectations of people around you... Live for yourself, and for your dreams... If you fucked up, SO WHAT? A life without mistakes is just plain crap."


Okay, I need to sleep. Next time na lang siguro ang kwento about the election happenings!

Narcolepsy, Part Whatever

Age according to your birth certificate: 26
Age you really think you are: 14 (so immature!)

1) What are 5 things you really like about yourself?
What’s there to like?! This is tricky:
- I am left handed. I don’t know exactly why, but maybe because it’s uncommon and it sort of distinguishes me from others.
- I have no qualms doing things on my own, like going out or eating out alone.
- I like to think that my obsessive behavior has a positive effect on others, like, it makes people curious why I am obsessing over certain things and find out what my hype is all about.
- I can laugh at my own screw ups.
- I have great friends!


2) What is one accomplishment you are really proud of that you can't ever write down in your resume?
- I’ve influenced other people to read some of the books I like, and not just the HP series.


3) If you could live a secret life, what kind of secret life would you live?
- I want to be his secret lover! Kidding! A CIA undercover agent.


4) What is the loveliest thing someone's told you lately?
- It’s more of the unsaid, really. But when friends approach me to confide or to ask for advice, it makes me feel warm. I’m honored that they trust me and value my opinion. Naks!


5) What is the most supreme act of kindness ever shown to you?
- When friends stand up and fight for me when I couldn’t.


6) What is your inner child wearing right now?
- A t-shirt, denim shorts, green socks and high top sneakers. I once owned a pair of green socks that I consider as my lucky socks.


7) Describe the very moment you first fell in love.
- I remember the fear, because I was so certain of what I feel, but so unsure of where it will take me. But I was happy like I’ve never felt in my life, and it seems like I’m always grinning I think I might be going crazy. And despite my fear, I was reckless, not the irresponsible reckless, but I was willing to take the risk no matter the outcome.


8) Describe your favorite person without using any adjectives.
- Camera whore (technically, the phrase is a noun, isn’t it?)


9) Complete the sentence on your future headstone: "Here lies...."
- Jela, who wants to be succinct but couldn’t quite pull it off and rambles herself away (or something just as long or maybe more, just to emphasize how long-winded she was in life and in death)


10) What movie character would you love to play?
- Eowyn in Lord of the Rings (“I am no man!”) or Julia (Drew Barrymore) in The Wedding Singer (so that Robbie can sing “I wanna grow old with you” to me!) or Scout Finch in To Kill A Mockingbird


11) Describe your perfect birthday cake.
- A chocolate cake with chocolate icing with just the right amount of sweetness that will make people come back for more.


12) A stadium of people are clapping for you and giving you a standing ovation. What did you just do to deserve this?
- I’ve sung the most heartfelt and moving rendition of “Happy Birthday”.


The lucky 13 question: If you were a musical instrument, what instrument would you be and how would you like to be played?
- An acoustic guitar – to be stroked tenderly and passionately. Whoa!

Ouch.

From PostSecret.

Dumbledore Is Gay!

What a surprise! Neither pleasant nor disturbing, just... a bit surprising. Doesn't change the fact that I still want him as a mentor.



Don't think it's true? Check out Mugglenet.



And in other news, can I have this hoodie for Christmas?

It's A Very, Very Mad World

Naliligo ako ng bigla kong marinig sa mommy ko na may sumabog daw sa Glorietta. Paglabas ko ng banyo, sinabi agad niya sa akin na buti na lang hindi ako nagpunta ngayon sa Glorietta (galing kasi ako ng Glorietta two days ago).

Pag-akyat ko sa room ko, meron na agad akong 2 miscall at 2 text tungkol sa pagsabog at nagtatanong kung nasaan ako. Ako naman, dahil masyadong self-absorbed, naisip ko agad: "Do I give off a vibe that I'm a Glorietta junkie?!" at masyadong concern ang mga tao-tao na baka nasa scene ako?

And then I got a very big dose of reality ng makita ko sa TV yung extent ng nangyari. Sobrang nakakatakot. Sobrang nakakalumo dahil andaming nadamay. At sobra akong nagagalit sa kung sino man ang may pasimuno ng aksidente...

At na-guilty ako kasi nauna na naman ang "me" mentality ko. Hindi ko inakala... And then my cynical side kicked in, doubting whether it was just an accident and thinking that it was really an act of terrorism; thinking that this is one of those "wag the dog" scenario; and even as I try to say a prayer for the victims and for the speedy resolution of the accident, a big part of me doubt whether any justice would be served.

How did our world become such a dangerous place to live in?

Daydreaming

Sana ikaw na lang...

Booorred...

The iTunes survey from Chase:

Total number of tracks in itunes: 915

Sort by song title
First song: 10 Days Late – Third Eye Blind
Last song: Zero – Smashing Pumpkins

Sort by time
Shortest track: Ganjazz – Eraserheads (0:41)
Longest song: Comfortably Numb (9:42)

Sort by artist
First: Tootsie Roll – 2 Live Crew
Last: Tao Po – The Youth

Sort by album
First: Champagne Supernova - Oasis [(What’s The Story) Morning Glory]
Last: Push – Matchbox 20 [Yourself Or Someone Like You]

Ten most played songs
Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol
Deep Inside of You – Third Eye Blind
Mr. Brightside – The Killers
Sugar Sugar – Archies
Makes Me Wonder – Maroon 5
Can’t Take My Eyes Off You – Muse
Each Time – E-17
A Question of Lust – Depeche Mode
So Far Away – Staind
Lost In You – Ash

First five songs that come up on party shuffle
You’ll Never Stop Me From Loving You – Sonia
Hanging By A Moment – Lifehouse
Walking After You – Foo Fighters
Over My Head – The Fray
I Will – The Beatles

Number of search returns for:
Sex: 4
Love: 54
You: 148
Death: 0
Hate: 4
Wish: 6

Narcolepsy, Part 2

Taking a break from the hustle and bustle of the upcoming barangay elections (take note: nagfile ng candidacy ang tatay ko at the last minute. argh! bye blissful vacation!)

Nicked again, this time from Chase:

01. Guilty pleasures?
Iron Chef, Eat Bulaga, cotton candy

02. Favorite bedtime item?
Pillows and Stuff Toys!

03. Dream careers?
Novelist or Astrophysicist or Gift Store Proprietor

04. Fantasy job?
CIA undercover agent or Wealth Manager of the rich and famous

05. If you’re not a “CFO-wannabe” you are?
I’m not exactly a CFO-wannabe, but if we’re talking about a job that’s a lot closer to what I’m doing right now and more achievable than my answers above, I want to be a trader specializing in commodity futures or fx swaps (hahaha more achievable daw!)

06. Queer turn-on?
Seriously? I was just watching Jericho last night, the episode when Skeet Ulrich was kissed by Heather. After the kiss, the way he bit his lower lip and gave the girl this look, that was some major turn-on! Okay, not really queer, but if I ever get that look after a kiss, I’ll spontaneously combust just for the kilig factor!

07. Major turn-off?
I don’t think I could ever be attracted to a guy who isn’t passionate about basketball. Mababaw, but it’s true.

08. Weird fetish?
Not weird, but I like being kissed in the forehead and cuddling my palms while we are secretly holding hands.

09. Favorite conversation starter?
Can divine predestination co-exist with free will?

10. Pettiest thing you ever cried over?
Movies

11. Hard habit you’d like to break?
Disinterest on my personal grooming. Not that I don’t take care of myself, but I have this tendency to go out without checking if my hair or face is still okay. Which almost always coincide with me bumping into a crush. Arg!

12. Virtue you’d wish to have?
Discretion. I tend to shoot myself in the mouth.

13. What you think people should never settle for?
Indifference. I just can’t stand people who don’t have any opinions at all.

14. What people should know about your driving?
That I don’t exactly enjoy driving. And that I suck at parallel parking. And that I tend to talk aloud and to myself while driving. And that I consider my talking aloud as a prelude to a simmering road rage.

15. If there is a “past life”, what is your theory?
That my “one true love” in my past life is also my one true love in this lifetime. Naks!

16. What makes you uncomfortable?
The question “kelan ka magpapakasal?”. And the unsaid but totally not so subtle implication of that question that unmarried/single = most miserable person in the world.

17. What for you is the biggest disappointment?
Not even trying.

18. When can you say that a person truly knows you?
When that person can correctly interpret my silence.

19. What do you think defines a person’s character?
His capacity to love, the choices he makes and his ability to take full responsibility for the consequences of his actions.

20. Three things you’d let the person you like have?
Time, faith and affection. Why am I being a romantic all of a sudden?!!

21. Happiness or contentment?
Contentment.

Narcolepsy

Nicked again from Bom!

The Life Survey


SAD SECTION:

01. Have you ever really cried your heart out?~
I haven't been so much of a crybaby recently, but when I cry, I cry like there's no tomorrow!

02. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?~
Yes, and I hope to never go through that again.

03. Have you ever cried on your friend's shoulder?~
Not literally, but I did cry in front of friends. And most of the time, it's for some stupid reason like the time I almost destroyed the microwave oven at the office! But when it comes to big stuffs, I try not to let friends see me in an emotional state. They sometimes interpret it as me being strong, ako, I just think I'm being selfish.

04. Do you cry when you get an injury?~
I think I have a higher threshhold for pain, but I remembered crying when I sprained my left ankle.


HAPPY SECTION:

01. Are you a happy person?~
I have my moments, but generally, I am a happy person.

02. What makes you happy?~
Lots of things - being with friends, talking, overanalyzing, going out, staying at home, reading, pag nakikita ko yung cute na Golden Retriever sa Perea, listening to music and creating my daydreams, text messages, waking up in the morning and realizing I still have another 10 minutes before the alarm rings and therefore another 10 minutes to just lie in bed, pag nakikita ko ang crush ko, solving a Sudoku puzzle in under 20 minutes, the fact that Christmas is just around the corner and seeing the lights in Ayala!

04. Is being happy overrated?~
Of course not. Although some of the reasons people come up with why someone should be happy are grossly overrated. Nobody has the right to decide for you what will make you happy.

05. Can music make you happy?~
Yes, especially if it has a special meaning to me. Meron ding time when I would be listening to a song and I would realize its meaning, whether happy or sad or angsty pa, and I would feel happy. Weird, but true. Music is also a source of constant amusement because I tend to mix up lyrics of songs that I ended up singing the first parts of a song correctly and then segue to a totally different song!


LOVE SECTION:

01. How many times have you had your heart broken?~
Well, I've gone through one major heartbreak. I was a big mess, feeling ko hindi ko talaga kaya. But I'm okay now! I've had previous small heartbreaks, the unrequited ones, or cases of "the right love at the wrong time".

02. Anyone besides your friends/family ever said they loved you?~
Yes.

03. Have you ever told someone you loved them?~
Yes, but not as much as I want to. I want to be more demonstrative, but I'm really not that big on love gestures and stuffs.


HATE SECTION:

01. Who do you actually hate?~
Hate is such a strong word. Well, there are people na, I think the world would be better off without them hahaha.. Okay, it sounded mean and it might sound as though I really hate them, but I don't hold grudges, I would feel that way for a moment, and then wala na. And anyway, hate is not the opposite of love. If you know what it is, it is what I feel for them.

02. Have you ever made a hit list?~
As I said, I don't hold grudges. In my world, if I don't like a person, they would just fall from the face of the earth. In short, they are just not too important para pag-aksayahan ng panahon.

03. Are you a mean bully?~
I am not a bully. But you know what, I think I have a capacity to be really cruel. People say that I'm just being frank or sometimes I would reason out that I'm only playing devil's advocate, but I sometimes say things that could really hurt, and I'm not proud of it.

04. Have you ever been on a hit list?~
I wouldn't know. Probably. Nobody's universally liked by everyone so I'm bound to be on at least one hit list.


SELF- ESTEEM SECTION:
01. Are you happy with yourself?~
There's a lot to improve, but yes, I'm happy and content.

02. Do you wish you could be someone else?~
Sometimes I wonder how it would feel to be in someone else's shoes. Specifically, I've always wondered how it would feel to be a man!

Sing This For Me Please?

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here


Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do


Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Blinded When I See You

Can you smell something in the air? That smell is the sweet smell of freedom - 7 freakin' days away from work!

Anyway, I will probably be spending my vacation in a state of (near) blindedness. My contact lens were again the victim of my carelessness and my pair of glasses are nowhere to be found. Right now I'm using an old pair of glasses and I really, really don't want to be caught outside wearing this thing.

Today is the first day of my vacation and I spent my morning oversleeping. Very productive I say. I woke up at around 10am and I sort of wish I were still sleeping because I realize that I would probably be the designated family chauffeur while I'm on leave, what with my mom bugging me that we should go out today! And you know how much I really enjoy driving. Like, not really.

Also, I just found out that one of my titas will be running as kagawad in the barangay elections. I really thought it was just one of our family jokes. Well, sometimes jokes are really half meant. So aside from my mom telling me to drive her around, my mom also wants me to make tarpaulin and letters and other what-have-yous for the election. And here I am thinking I would be spending a very blissful leave in the company of my books, DVDs, internet and Nintendo DS lite. (Yep, I never intend to be productive during my vacation.) (Although one can argue that completing the missions in Super Mario Bros. counts for being productive.)

Then again, anywhere away from the office is heaven, right? So let me enjoy my 7 days the way I want to. The way I see it, I pretty much earned it. =)

(Hopefully, this would also mean more updates for my blog. I'm keeping my fingers crossed!)

That's My Michael!

I love Michael – and I’m not talking about Michael Scofield here!



Meet Michael from Kid Nation:




He’s awesome and he’s only 14! Although he looks like a 10 year old! He’s charismatic without trying too hard and he’s totally cute! (Hey, don’t look at me like that! I don’t like him that way, okay?)



I didn’t expect to like Kid Nation, but I do. So far, they’re not showcasing these kids in a way that’s exploitative and manipulative. I can understand that some of them are quite obnoxious, but hey, they’re just kids. I was just as obnoxious when I was that young! The surprising thing was, most of them seem to be smart and mature for their age and that’s what’s making me watch the show.